Wondering what to write about

I’ve deciding to just start and see what becomes of the random key taps now filling the air. Right now I’m listening to Ben Folds - Rockin the Suburbs and thinking about what to do with myself now that I’m married.

I don’t live with a bunch of guys in a DoubleWide trailer and when I come home - it isn’t to a party or amazing amounts of testosterone style games to prove that death is further from our future than vegetables are from our frozen pizzas.

I don’t have random people stopping over to see what’s new or going to be happening later that night. I’m now a married man and I’m now supposed to envy those that have such freedom and childishly try to find my own outlets for craziness but under an older and more mature umbrella.

I’m supposed to think about more than just myself and realize that I have things to take care of and running around like a caveman’s first reaction to civilization isn’t so much allowed.

Life is confusing when you get married. Something changes and you’re not quite sure on the person you should be and the things you should keep or lay to rest. Of course, it’s enjoyable but in the back of your mind, you feel a little different. You never would have guess that one day filled with hundreds of guests, cake and the simple words “I do” changes your life and the way you think about it.

It’s an interesting transformation and I guess it feels similar to a doctor’s waiting room. You have things to do (i.e. read magazines and look at people) but you’re still waiting for that special moment when the door opens and you’re name is called.

In the words of Ben Fold - “Everybody knows - it’s hard to grow up. And everybody know it’s weird to be here, and the years go on and we’re still fighting and you try…, and try… and one day - you’ll find a way.”

posted on September 24, 2003 | 10:11 PM EST

motivational speaker and world renound b-s'er Says:

write about the ending of the book you just finished, see if anyone else out there has some insight or conversation about it.

Write about your car troubles and how you have this odd sense of knowing it’s coming.

write about breakfast with friends - and Tom…

write about Havemans wedding/reception.

write about being married - HOW AWESOME it is :)

write about going hunting this November, or hoping to go sooner for deer for the first time.

write about anything, something and nothing at all … just write.

Posted at: October 1, 2003 2:41 PM

rob Says:

Schaap… dude. the last poster - with the long name that ends in b.s.’er - alluded to a different theory about the ending of The Giver. Now come back with me, if you will, to a time in which we also discussed the end of the book, and that I hoped that you would enlighten me on what your view of the end would be.

This is for sure a sign… you should write up your interpretation stat - I would for sure come back and read it.

Posted at: October 7, 2003 8:38 PM

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