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Jodi’s thoughts on it all

Driving to work this morning I was thinking about what it’s going to be like for my high school friends to be talking about me in conversation and have to correct themselves when they say - “Remember Jodi Broersma … although I think she got married, something like Smith, Scott, Scap … or was it Schaap … yea Jodi Schaap … ” That train of thought brought me to the realization that this is the biggest decision I’ve made in my ENTIRE life. 4 days to go and it dawns on me that when I’m 40 I will have been married longer than I was ever single. I might have a teenager when I’m 40 - I might even have 2. And the snowball just kept getting bigger until I was wondering what kind of repercussions would hit if I said … oooops - just kidding, I’m not completely ready … I’ll take a rain check on this whole ever after with you.

In reality - I’m pumped and completely ready to get married in 4 days. Infact I’m pretty ecstatic about the whole ordeal - I mean, really. I’ll be having sleep overs EVERY NIGHT with my best friend … what more does a girl ask for?

Stability, communication, protection, comfort and someone backing me up … to mention a few. Ah, communication. He has all of these qualities - I have nothing to worry about.

Although, I’m beginning to wonder if I’m supposed to be really stressed out. I have more than one person asking me on a daily basis if everything is ready to go, am I stressed, nervous, worried or having second thoughts. I’m not stressed at all, and why wouldn’t I have everything ready, I’m getting married in 4 days … you’d think thats what the whole engagement was for or something. No I’m not nervous, but you’re making me wonder … and second thoughts mean what ??? am I wondering if I should get married at all; well I said yes - and I’ve had 6 months to rethink everything completely, and still in 4 days I’m going ahead with it …

OH-MY-GOSH I’m getting married.

posted on August 26, 2003 | 1:15 PM EST