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Hard Times

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Hard Times

I have to be honest. I’m having a hard time right now. College is already overwhelming me with confusions in my schedule and being sent to wrong classes on wrong days. Amongst missing my first Sociology class due to the scheduled mess.

This may be a normal thing to people that have been going to college for a while - I really do not know. I do however know that it hasn’t made me any happier to be going back to college. Pulling out of classes and just proceeding with my personal studies has often clouded my mind these past couple of hours.

That’s just school and with any person there is much more to ones life than just one set of problems.

Work

As the common response to a passing friend that asks how work is going - “Work is work!î I feel like I do the same thing every day. Of course, I have different versions of this monotony but nonetheless it’s repetitive and growing annoying.

I risk the chance of my boss reading this but feel ok with fact that he’s an understanding guy. A person that has probably been in my same shoes possibly more than once in his life.

On the account of what I really want from my job - I don’t have a bullet list to show. This, in and of itself, is part of the problem. Whereas I want something different and better - I have nothing to compare it to if something different and better were to come about. However, I’m working on this.

On the other note, I do like my job. This is confusing when compared to my last statement but true. I have fun on many occasions and like the freedom given to me in order to complete daily tasks. I’m lucky to not have people looking over my shoulder and asking if I received the memo.

Where I’m actually at?

I’m simply confused with life. Many things are going on and I usually become confused when my life has many new things. (i.e. buying a house, college, figuring out work/life goals, etc.)

Lord only knows how many times I’ve been confused with life. Only to come out of confusion with a new mind and enhanced satisfaction on the way things are.

Right now, you could say I’m standing on the foot of a mountain. Just looking at all I must over come and trying to figure out the best route. I know it will happen - it’s just contemplating my moves and taking that first deep breath with a forward movement.

posted on January 10, 2003 | 12:07 AM EST