old memories from old stuff
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My 14 year old brother, Justin, moved into my old room back at my parents house and I guess has decided to start customizing everything to his style. Alot of this has to do with getting ride of the person’s stuff that was in there before.
Earlier today Justin brought over a bunch of my old stuff. Boxes filled with old awards, art projects, books, and more. But the thing I liked best in all of this forgotten crap was good old letters.
There were letters from old girlfriends and from just plain friends. I had old birthday cards and I had cards from nearly every other event in my life. I had happy letters but also sad ones. Shoot - I even had a ton of old, printed out emails that I sent and received back in 97’.
I used to print all my emails out for the longest time because I was still getting used to the whole email technology. I wasn’t comfortable just leaving all these wonderful, electronic letters somewhere else in the world other than in my hands.
All these letters/printed emails flooded old memories into my head like a popped air bubble under water. It’s just amazing to look back and see what type of things you’ve made it through. Remembering those very moments when you thought things couldn’t get any better, or couldn’t get any worse.
I made it yet another day and I learned from those experiences. Every one of these people changed the way I look at life and accountable for the way I think and live with the world around me.
One of the things you don’t think it will do is make you look into the future. You start wondering what you will look back on 5 years from now. You start thinking what you will did right and what you did wrong.
There’s alot of confusion added on top of the normal amount we are given every passing day. However - it helped me to put life into a much better perspective. Honestly I couldn’t tell you in words what that perspective is. So many things are still confusing but many other things are answered.
Nothing, I guess, really changed. I’m still passionate about life and just as confused some 5 years ago. I guess it’s at a much more advanced level though.
Does this make sense? And for those of you that just went to go find those old letters or look over those old yearbooks and high school propaganda - what kind of thoughts hit you?
Are you becoming the person you want to become?
I thought I knew what to become! Says:
It’s Time, I threw away the chains
It’s time to let love fly away
It’s time I let you go
It’s time to say good bye
no more excuses
no more tears to cry
There’s been so many changes
I thought I knew who to become
I wanted me to be happy,after all we are supose to be our own bestfriend
It’s so hard to let my old self go…with all that could have been!
Fate has a way of changing when you don’t want it too!
SO I threw way the chains
I’ve let love fly away
until the new me comes again
Life passes so quickly
you’ve got to take the time
you’ll miss what really matters
you’ll miss all the signs
I’ve spent my life searching for what has always been there!
Throw away the chains
let love fly away
until the day the new me come’s again…….
(thanks Amanda Marshal)